We All Live With Delusion!

Written by Linda Mains

Delusion...why do we live with delusions? Did anyone ever notice, that some people, which you may run into in your life; never come clean, and they never fully disclose to you, their true feelings about you? Weather these people are your family members, your husband or wife, your kid, or someone who's close. They'll never tell you how they really feel about you, because they are incapable of coming clean with you or anybody about their true feelings about anyone. We all live with delusional thinking, I guess it's just a way the human psyche reacts, when our lives and things get out of control. It's not like you can just walk away from your personal delusions, about whats real in your life and what does and doesn't work in it. It's not easy coming clean with yourself about what needs to change in your life. I guess you could get mad at yourself, but we all know for the most part that most people don't.

It's not just personal relationships that many millions of people world wide our delusional about. We're delusional about how great our jobs are, how wonderful our houses and apartments are, how beautiful our husbands and wife's, girlfriends and boyfriends are or are not. Maybe it's our existences, which could totally suck...but because we'll buy stuff, all of us whether we want to admit it or not...buy a lot of crap, to cover up our true feelings about our personal junk. I've done it, you've done it...I believe everyone in America has done it; we've consumed our way into more and more delusional thinking.

Yes, I understand that the truth hurts, especially, when you have to begin to take the journey of self realization to truth. So we can understand and come to terms with; maybe our life's are less then perfect or even much less then perfect. In society you'll even begin to recognize, that even your co-workers, semi close friends, and the people whom claim to know you...will also help you to live a  delusional life style, by supporting your imaginary thesis about your life. A thesis which is completely false about you and your life, but you'll chose to believe that, rather then have to face the truth about your current situation. The reality of the situation might be...that your wife or husband is a total bitch or dick, always has been, and always will be, and the likelihood of them changing to be a benefit in your life or in any one's life...would be like you hitting the California Lottery. I mean you'll play every week, but the chances of you actually hitting the lottery are slim to none. That sentence also goes for all the wayward children that you may have stagnating your existences right now. These kids will drag you down by constantly getting in trouble and starting a bunch of shit in your life. I know, but their our kids; right? Well I guess since most of us live with our delusions, well try to think to ourselves; but one day little Johny will grow out of his fuck head ways, and he'll have a wonderful life. When the cold hard facts point to; one day if little Johny doesn't grow out of his fuck head ways. Then one day little Johny will be doing hard times, as a human pin cushion, while wearing an orange jump suit. Shit this type of delusional thinking, can even extend itself all the way down to our pets; yes...pets! Pets whom are friends, whom comfort us, whom support us threw our emotional bullshit. Yes we can have delusions about our pets! Maybe your little Fluffy is actually a Samurai killer behind your back...he's eating the neighbor's cats, any bird that's unfortunate enough to fly into your yard. This dog barks at everything; all night long, every day all the time! He never stops! Your dog has made a habit of taking random dumps, all over your house, while eating all your favorite shoes. But instead of just admitting that your dog is a piece of shit, and should be euthanized before he eats a toddler; who's unlucky enough to run into your yard. You'll just turn back to the comfort of your delusional thinking, and you'll tell anyone, who has the balls to confront you, about your Fluffy being more like a  Kojo, then the loving doggy you believe him to be. You'll simply turn to your friend or the person whom confronted you and say; "but you don't know him, like I know him!"

We don't know him, and we probably don't know all the other assholes in your life ether. Assholes that you are making excuses for! All to keep your delusional life style moving forward. Don't gasp, we're all guilty of doing this. I know I am! I've done this with friends, loved ones, my kid and many, many boyfriends. Where even my kid was like; "mom why did you date that guy? He acted like Dexter, I was scared for your safety mom. I thought that guy was going to kill you!" Yea I've done it...and I've also paid for my delusional life style choices, over and over again. I've also lost many, many, friends...because they knew what I didn't want to admit to. That the person that they had scene me with, and the person that they knew that person to be, was an asshole! So I choose to pick my imaginary dream man, over my friends. I've done it, and I know many of you have done it too. Maybe it's our society, that makes us act this way? We have societal pressure to stay in bad relationships, with lovers and friends. And their is so much stigma from pretty much every segment of society about being alone. It's especially hard on women! After a certain age women get the; "you're not married yet look, from family and friends."  Plus no one really wants to spend every waking moment alone, but after awhile alone starts to look a lot better then, the shit you might be dealing with right now...especially when you start breaking your way out of that delusional bubble which you're trapped in right now.

Delusion in the world is so bad right now; that you can even trick yourself into believing that your own self destructive patterns of being are great. They are just cloaks to make our delusional world stay together. When a person gets high, it's to keep the reality premise out of their life's equation. Nothing looks how it really looks, when your high or drunk...everything just looks better. I believe that in 2011 that's why a lot of people in the U.S, and in the rest of the world, are constantly getting high and drunk right now, just so they don't have to step into reality. It's simply so they won't have to deal with the truth; about what their life's have become. So how do we escape from our delusional life's bubble...well we have to look at our situations with an honest heart. How does this person, these people, my relatives, or my kids or pets, or jobs; really make me feel? If we can't live without these people, pets or jobs...then we might say, instead of it being the best things ever; "yea my job, lover, friend or pet, might suck, but I can't just get rid of my job, lovers, pets, friends or kids. I will learn to accept how these things really are. I will no longer be talking these thing up, and living my delusional life style. I will accept what I can't change and change what I can." I won't self medicate my feelings of failure, I will learn to feel these losses without drugs or alcohol!" I really hope that works for you guys, I'm not saying that it will...it's helped me to live in reality, and not make my life into an episode of the Kardashians because of my delusional thinking." Yes my life is far from perfect, but God loves the possibility for change, and so do I, so I'll struggle on. So I won't give up, and I hope none of you don't either. Hopefully we will all find our way back to reality, and one day maybe, we will be able to leave our delusional life styles behind. Maybe one day, that would be a really great day; wouldn't it?